I always be okay beside my God

I guess its tough tough tough when you are alone, trying to adjust myself with my surrounding, i cnt imagine if i never know my God. What will I be? This days is the toughest where i got to remember all my past. Sometime i wish i can just erase it. But aiyoohh.. nope its not so easy and it wont just dissapear.

I Believe God want me to do something and He really have something for me, He plan my life very well, He let me go down and havingbsuch diffilcuties is because He want me to be strong.

I trust You Lord, eventho my day are tough but You are the one who always be with me now.

I realise dream can be so annoying when i dream on those sick dream but my problem just a first world problem.. i cant imagine what happen with him.. if in the future his gf ask why your hand like that.. its like wherever you go.. you will remember me, God bless you and me, i trust God .. i guess he have his own plan for him

I actually learn alot from my relationship, where i need to stand strong on God rather than lose myself into him, this is the biggest mistake ever. I guess God want me to learn about this.. i become backslider.. and lazy ass, oh my shamefull merryyy shamefulll!

God is there any second chance? Do i have the right to ask this? I know ive been rejcted so badly .. well yeah i guess no need to have this 2nd chance, i believe He will give me somebody, who are going to chase me hard and know God so well and be able to love me, who going to guide me and support each other to love God, who willingly to accept my past and love me for who i am, appreciate me of who i am, somebody that is so strong and be able to lead. Wise and humble infront of you God...i know your plan is good. My life is in your hand.

Determine

Yeh, pagi hari kerasa beda dengan pagi yang lain
. banyak banyak hal seng mesti dipikirno..
selama ini aku jadi orang yang lemah.. padal diri dewe benci mbek wong lemah..

mesti brubah mungkin setelah tahun ini Tuhan bakalbawa aku kearah selanjutnya yang ga pernah tak pikirno, thank you doro aku ada adik2 keluarga,

yang penting ada Tuhan serta aku ... ini seng paling isa buat orang kuat.

hal pertama seng bakal tak lakukno lek emang itu jalane Tuhan.

keluar dari tempat kerjaku babah entuk ga entuk

TRAVELLINGGGGGG, PARTYYYYY AHAHAHA
mau shopping macem2!!! savinhgku bakal entek wess...
trus mau pindah tempat yang enak..

satu tujuan seng bakal aku dateng ya canada, pingin spend my time kaya dulu sama rani ven2 aku bakal pakek duitku belikno somebody i care buat pergi mbek aku alesanku nanti moga2 isa ditrima ae mbek koko ahahaha


sebelum kejadian wes tak angan2 entah itu salah satu hal yang baek engga..

Terbalik?

Keterbalikan?

dalam beberapa minggu ini
banyak hal yang terjadi dalam diriku sejak ditentukan dalam 2 tahun ini harus melangkah menuju keseriusan.

ya ya dee pernah bilang "why you feel so insecure?"
daripada feel insecure kayakne aku mesti balik lagi ke aku,
bener tah ini hal seng tepat? hubungan kita... kamu..? aku?
sejak banyak omong, apalagi kata2
"well if you did that i might go faster.. go crazy when im outside, and you will see me go more faster"
ini dibahas tentang kenapa aku kok bukan orang pencemburu..

kata2 yang selalu melekat diotak.. dimana aku mengerti kalo dee ga inget kejadian ku dulu,
dikekang.. buang konco.. cuman karena mau serius..
wow.. lek misale dulu aku ya kaya gitu yak apa ya?
sejak aku kehilangan konco apa aku trus lepas hubungan ae sekalian..
"SAKIT HATI" meennn..
salahkuu juga seh.. soale aku lambat mikire baru hari2 didepan dipikir.

kata2 yang terus terngiang2 buat aku jadi ngrasa insecure, ga cuma karena dee..
tapi diriku sendiri.. aku jadi pingin bersosial lagi..punya temen baek cowok disini..
dimana aku isa hangout sama2
(ahaha untung anak2 diindo ga aku lepas..)

relationship itu bener2 ga mudah, mau ngomong masalah gini.. dibilang kok aku liat balik masa lalu?
well masa lalu memang ga bisa dilupakan, tapi di pelajari..
kadang bingung.. apa aku bener bisa jadi couple? atau aku cocok hidup sendiri?

kebebasan..

dia berubah.. well in a better way..
is it a good thing that i still stay the same? or should i changed too?

??
doubt.. anger.. sadness.. please dissapear..


tarik nafas panjang..........

lepas.......


kalau emang aku sudah serius..aku harus terbuka..

Tuhan tolong bantuan dari hatiku =]

A Little Bit Of Heaven Official Trailer - In UK Cinemas Feb 4th

the movie that I watched with Him

Well its good better than the abduction that I watch i think ahahaha
not that boring and funny.

well i love the girl personality alooooooooottt
she is super fun ahahaha

and thanks for the movie giving me a good msg.

When you know God, you wont afraid of anything even Death.

XD

Birthday wishlist CHECK XD

Worship

thank you God, that You giving me the best gift in my life.
Sorry that I always make You disappointed by denying You before, but
now im a different person.

Im not gonna run away, but i will run toward You
NO MATTER WHAT
even any problem coming but i will still running towards You.
I am a sinner and just a human being.
just You only that can make me something.
a whole new me.

I thank you thank and thanks to You.
thanks that one of my life wishlist, the one that I cant be done without You
one of my wish that is super hard to fulfil without You
one of my birthday wish on this year.

Thank You Lord.
Thank You Jesus.
Thank You that You brought him to You.

Please Lord dont leave him, or make him leave You.

Theres nothing more awesome or sper kick ass thing in out there.. its just You.

=D

Im super happy Lorrrddd THANK YOUUUU!!!!
Amien

sick?

I got airplane to catch and the doctor telling me about FEVER??

my head pop out of

ahahah ok thats my lame thinking.. but surely i do afraid if i got to cancel my flight just because of this stupid sickness. sigh..
and.. I miss my project.. WTH?? I!@&^(!(*&%^*!@()&!!
not that I kiasu or anything, but I dont like my work to get passed to other.
but well I wont want to come to the office with a giddy head and being noisy all the time.
or spreading my sick around?
ahahha well maybe its good? ? ? lol

my first MC of my first work... Hope I can claim this one, if not.. sigh wasted my money to go such a expensive doctor..
and maybe they tried to overdose me by giving me alot amount of medicine to take ..

just take neozep<< one pill then enough..
for flu and fever

yep here they are recommended by doctor in my place.. but since im going to take flight i dont want to take any chance getting more sickness, so Ill just go to doctor and see what they said.

Christina A - Hurt

A song by Christina




God please be with me right now.
Amien