SCHOOLAAHH di Sinciapoooo!

My N*F* is not a good place to study but its a great experience to have here

I remember I dont like Singapore at all, even I can blend in well in here, It just such a urban hectic life here, I can feel those stress in each people, and yes... those people here arent that friendly as well.

But this small country giving me alot of experiences

about people, life, friendship and.. "LOVE"

wondering maybe im in love with him too much

taking all of his whole new difference experience, theres laugh and tears,

I know I cried alot, but I know that I smile because I have somebody that wont let me go.

This guy teach me that love is accepting no matter who you are.

sometime I just felt, Im not that worthy because I might not going to change for him,

im super insensitive, unromantic, unsupportive... 

and because I always think this is me, and my thinking is "this"

(even actually surround me told me that I've changed)

well... who want this failure girl?? shameful of me..

If I really changed I just hope it changed to be a better person.

its almost a year, and Im still waiting for many years to come.

Im afraid that negative site of me appear again.. having those all unconfident about myself.

When im lack of my confident, I have words easy to slip out my mouth.. and this thinking of

"why wasting time??" or " better end it rather than its too late" ALWAYS COME OUT!

I know when I said this kind of rubbish words,

I just hit my own face and step his heart,

but word that coming out cant be taken back.

sometime I think that we both too different.. BUT when im in my positive side 

"Different means complete one and another"

if im in my moody side,  It told me that 

" its the same with trying to marry your chihuahua with a saint benard type "

ahahah MERRY YOU NEED TO BE BETTER PERSOOONNN!!!

"love yourself first"

this word are true, if I love myself, i will have those positive thinking and I will make all my surround will react positively to me. I hope I still got it.

thanks MARY AND MAX movie =D