The best day of my life

I never know that I tear on happiness just because of one msgs from him.
One of small faith of You.
Thank you God.

I really believe that Your plan is SUPER GOOD!
All is in Your plan!!

what boys want for a girl.

what kind of girl that people want to have?

some of the tips that I found.

• Be friendly. Everybody loves friendly girls. 
• Guys like girls who are relaxed, funny, and friendly; not aggressive snobs.
• If someone really hurt you, you should let them know.
• Don't pretend to be someone you are not.
• smile and talk to them like you`re their friend.

well.. ahahaha.. ill probably fail with number 3..

another one

1. DON'T LEAVE HIM GUESSING
Guessing is fun when it comes to game shows, but Howie Mandel can't help him when he's trying to figure out which movie you'd like to see or what you want for your birthday. I know you girls all wish we'd just get you enough to figure it out on our own, but the truth is, guys aren't great at reading subtle hints. So just tell your guy what you want — it will make your life easier, and he will be a lot less confused. If all you give him to go on is, "I'll watch anything," your guy will end up spending more time talking to Mr. Moviefone than he will hanging out with you!

2.KNOW WHEN IT'S OKAY TO LIE
Guys want you to be honest when it comes to important things, like whether you're dating him exclusively or how far you want to go physically. But when it comes to personal things that could be sore spots, like thinking his best friend is hot or hating his mom's cooking, he'd prefer that you tell a little white lie. You don't have to pretend to love his hideous new shirt, but you can just say something neutral, like, "It's okay. I like your green one better." Guys appreciate when girls have the heart not to needlessly hurt our feelings — because yes, we do have them!

3. PICK YOUR BATTLES
No relationship is perfect, and no two people are going to agree on everything. A great girlfriend doesn't let her pride stand in the way of letting her guy walk away from a silly argument at leastthinking he got his point across (even if you still secretly disagree with him). If you're arguing about something important to you, like your religious beliefs, then stick to your guns. But little disagreements can snowball into big fights. And nothing is sadder than having a huge fight and breaking up because he doesn't think Grey's Anatomy rocks and you think it's awesome. McDreamy's just not worth it.

4. HUMOR HIM
Stupid as it may seem, guys get worked up about things like video games and sports. The best girlfriends realize that these things really mean something to guys and affect us on an emotional level. Think about how psyched you get when you score a great bag at a killer sale. It makes your day, right? That's how we feel when our team sinks a half-court buzzer beater. And it's nice to have a girl who'll cheer right along with us, whether or not she really cares what just happened.

5. GIVE HIM A BREAK
Girls will always be our main focus, but sometimes we just want to hang out with our friends. Guys are so used to being told what to do by our moms that we have it in our head that we'll need to beg our girlfriend's permission to see our buddies. So if your guy says, "I might hang out with the guys on Saturday night," and you reply, "Okay, have fun!" he'll think you're cool. And it'll make him want to hang out with you that much more next Saturday night!

ahaha no wonder.. number 1,2 and 3..<< I never did this right.

hmmph..

number 4 and 5.. sadly he dont need this.

he wont like my joke.. he will think that im mocking him..... 

ahahaha sadly I only joking around when he is not around.. 

I like making people laugh, 

sometime I just dont care that they see me as a clown.. 

well good thing about being a clown.. is make others smile and laugh.

and.. I fail to make him laugh.. ahahaha.. funny =[

number 5.. i cant talk about this...

well its sad to know this all of the tips.. sometime it just dont really work out well,

its all depend on the person...

...

ahahaha im broken.

confusing..

should I stop msging.. or..?

waiting is painful and I never been treated like this.

do I ever treat him like this..??

did he ever msging me lot times but never get any reply??

... 

YOOO YOOO YOOO merryyy delete all those unhappy things..

be happy be merry!!

=D

a lesson of life from my mom

I was in a mess, was..
Thanks God XD
thank you for giving me this kind of life, so I could learn more about this experience.
Im in a overflowing of joy that You giving me this kind of family.

Im not that close to my mom.. every each of our time full with arguing..
and my mouth have a sharp tongue that can pierce deep other people's heart.
We both hurting each other.
but....
distance make us better.

IM sooo happpyyyy.. this is my first time.. having a really long talk with my mom, well I can stay for 3 hours talking with her..
Its an amazing experience... THANK YOU GOD XD.

Im sorry that in my last post it was totally negative stuff.. and.. fulllll offff negative.

Its a simple chat but for me its a super meaningful lesson for the future.

I just realize that she is a tough mommy.

she have a bit same habit like me.. "forgetful" ahahahhaa
well its theres a good things and bad things about it.
but right now I want to take this positive things from it.
be able to forget is something that is amazing.
I know how she got scold like hell from my dad... and how my dad treat her.
this is why im so piss off when people scream at me and scold me..
I always seen my mom get scolded by dad at night.. ...
every time they have quarrel I saw it,
I saw how my dad scold my mom like hell, this is making me not happy when people scold me, raising their tone infront of me..
my thinking will be
"wtf.. im not getting treat like this from people who dont have the same blood with me, F* you and get off! I dont need you and I can do things by myself without you! F* off!!"
 ... ahahaha ups this is something that I need to learn from my mom.

when she got scold or whatever she got treated by my dad.. she easily forget.
She will forget!.. when if my daddy suddenly go in and in happy mood,
she will be very supportive.. (since she forgot the problem that they discuss)

She told me.. those bad things that you dont want to hear.. just a blabbering out and some nonsense of a stressed people.. are.. the things that good to forget.
"you dont need to hear it, because if you does hear them.. you gonna put those in your heart.. and Its not good to put those bad stuff in your heart, bad stuff just throw it away, you dont agree with it, then.. just throw it away, forget about it".
this is something that.. funny.. but i need to learn this.
When I saw people glare at me, Ill stare them with my bitchy face.
If they raising their high pitch tone, I will do the same.
if they are bitching with me, I will bitch them too
If they scold me, Ill scold them back
If they scream at me, Ill scream too.

this.. is not good, I need to control my emotion well.
giving a negative with a negative.. turn out to be more negative.
hmm.. ahaha my mom is awesome!

not only that she told me how a pregnant mom suffering. A mom is a mom..
they are a great person. My mom are awesome. =]

Thanks God for giving me this kind of mom..
she is amazing. Thank you!!

? what?

do you like when people msg you and then you dont get any reply..
especially from your loved one?


this is the first time i got this kind of feeling.
waiting for the msg.
... I better said Giving each other time.. so I dont need to wait.
when Im not waiting, it wont felt hurt as you wanting something.

ill try not to take it too seriously and thinking.. and keep thinking positive.

just wait till my limit to end.

.random though

Sometime plan doesnt go like what you wanted.
this is why I never plan..

or..

I plan it in under my realm..
I always go with the flow.. but it doesnt mean I dont plan anything.
my life is all about unsure but in the end it always turn to sure.

Ive been trying to let go.. and now I can Let go. but it take times.
Im those people can become a person who are nice.. or too nice..
but  when I become a bitch im not a normal bitch.
I will be the super bitch that will make your life suffer like hell.

sometime I got this too flexible...
Im very proud with my flexibility but not anymore.
I get to flexible until I change my own habit ... and sometime is under my control.
recently... since I dont have those positivity around me.. I become super duper bitch..
I dont want to let go of my pride. I put it too high and when people trying to argue.
no matter what ... the decision I want to win.
even im right.. or wrong.

this pride is have been my biggest stone.. and its hard to move this stone away from my heart.
its such a pain having this pride with me.. If I can I want to throw it away.

.CHURCH.
I rarely come and pray inside church..* blaming on my traumatic now.. sigh*
but this place is really giving me a lot LOT LOT of positiveness.
I dont want to pass any of my church time anymore.
This place the only one who can give me strength for my mentality
Ive been tutoring myself with my own.. brain.. and my own feeling.. and its wrong..
since im not to close with God.
but priest.. who I can say that they are a blessing people.
their words are amazing *well because its God's word*
this is a sensitive case for others to talk about this.

well now I know.. the one who can save me is no other but God.
thanks lord..
sorry for making You disappointed all the time.
this.. your daughter've been a very2 bad girl..
but I know God you are something that I hold on..
something who are really wont let me go..
and You are.
Ive been cursing you when I was very young.
but.. your love teach me to say
I love you God, my Jesus.
and the one that I can promise that I wont let You go without breaking it.

row row row your boat

Row, row, row your boat,
Gently down the stream.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.




A lyric.... suddenly that ive thought of.

I realize I dont have friends anymore since im attached,
am I taking this relationship wrongly ? noo this is what I choose.
yesterday the feeling of getting left is abit in a high saturated.
but "just go with it" is a good companion for movie for me.
yes "just go with it"...

nice story .. he found her for so long, but he never see it through.

ok back...
left behind alone in the room, I though its going to be okay...
at the first 45 minutes.. its not okay
hearing people laughing, chatting, and playing outside..
and saw.. he hold that stinky stick..
hmmph... Ive got the think that.. what am I doing in here?
well..then ahahah
I CONQUER MY FEELING..

thanks to the adam sandler

handsome dude who know how to make my day!

well suddenly, saturday have a big planning for me..
going out...
for I dont know when is it, I get to go out now..
( i dont know how but I dont plan for this.. just suddenly come..
wohoo gosh please dont think of revenge because its really not..
suddenly she come .. and cant help it!)

sorry but just let me out.. and have fun for today
you've been having quite fun yesterday and last time..(thanks to the iphone again) so let me go today.

.sorry.

Cancer

I dont like the mythology story of cancer =[
they died in the end got smash and pityness from hera
gah -__-

ok then now the facts of cancer

"active, self-motivated, usually ambitious, they like to generate momentum in any group of people in which they find themselves.  Cancer seek to motivate all activity to satisfy its changing mood and emotional need."


"Cancer can turn bluer than an inkwell, and drown you in depression deeper than the floor of the ocean.  His fears are usually well covered by the nutty lunar humor, but they are always with him, haunting his days and nights with a vague sense of nameless dangers, lurking in the shadows.  Pessimism is never far away; always ready to spoil those beautiful flights of fancy.  But, until he learns to conquer his fears, they form his Achilles heel, and they hurt every time he starts to fly to high."


"His tears are never crocodile tears.  They flow from the deep rivers of his fragile and vulnerable heart.  You can wound his sensitive feelings with a harsh glance or a rough tone of voice.  Cruelty can bring on brimming eyes or a complete withdrawal.  In the midst of uncertainty, despair and sadness, cancer people seek retreat and solitude. "


"Cancers have another mood, crabby.  The person who gives you a cranky answer when you asked for the time, the one who nearly snapped your head off when you asked him to pass the salt, was probably a cancer person going through one of his occasional crabby spells that makes him hate the world.  He’s not angry with you.  He’s disappointed with life.  He’ll get over it, and be his own sweet, gentle and understanding self when the Moon changes."


"When he does make a move, he’ll want some sort of track record behind him – or behind you.  The crab carefully calculates his actions on experiences either his own or someone else’s.  He needs the strength of an accepted precedent or the assurance of financial security as a foundation."


"No matter how much money he piles up in reserve, Cancer never feels really secure, and no matter how much love he gets, he always needs more.  His emotions never let him become sure enough to relax completely. He’s always piling up tangibles against some imaginary future disaster. There’s one thing you have to understand about these people.  If it’s old, it has value.  If it’s new, it’s suspect."


"Cancerian emotions can be stronger than the physical body.  Worry and apprehension can make him ill, and cheerfulness can make him well.  Often, he fears financial collapse or the loss of someone he needs emotionally. 
If his security is threatened, either at the bank or in his heart, he can fall into a depression which unconsciously courts sickness or accident.  If he grows melancholy about fearsome possibilities, he invites trouble, and he’ll take twice as long to get well."

OK THE CANCERIAN MAAALEEE!!

 Cancerians never confide to strangers, and there are certain things even their best friends don’t know.  It will take a long time and a fair amount of patience to really know him.  If you catch him in one of his cantankerous moods, you may not be very anxious to really know him but try again.  Don’t give up so easily.<< for me ahaha

He can be flirtatious and fickle, but he can also be sensitive and loyal.  Without warning, that wrinkled frown can be replaced by a gentle smile. When he’s sad and wistful, you’ll want to put your arms around him, and soothe away his melancholy.  When he’s showing off his sharp, intuitive mind, you’ll stare at him in awe.  His caution will impress you.  His pessimism will depress you.

You have to understand his personality changes.  They’re simply lunar moods, moving across in consciousness, here today – gone tomorrow.  Both during and between each mood, the Cancer man is true to himself.  Always try to remember that although a Cancerian’s manner can be rough and aloof, his heart is always soft and affectionate, and so full of sentiment it often makes him feel too vulnerable.  The temperature changes of a Cancerian could puzzle anyone.  First you shiver under his freezing glances, and then you get smothered with devotion.  His moods are the meanest when he’s the most afraid of losing something.

Finances have fascinated him since childhood, and saving will be substantially more attractive to him than spending.  Cancerian’s seldom collect cash for status.  They collect it for its own sweet sake.  Cancer man has an interesting idea of economy.  He’d rather take you out to the best restaurant, and get what he pays for, than risk offending his sensitive tastes with over-cooked lamb chops and indifferent service in a second rate place.

When a Cancer person tackles a career, he’s sure to be at the top of it.   He’s loaded with artistic talent.

If he’s a true Cancerian, he won’t’ be wild about sports clothes.  He likes conservative cuts and good tailoring. 

The typical Cancerian male is a devotee of the finer things in life.  He’ll usually be a gentleman until you stop being a lady. Ask him about his family tree.  He’ll love to tell you.  Most Cancerians delight in their backgrounds and their blood lines.  

It may be many years before a Cancer becomes enamoured with a woman because it isn’t easy for him to find a woman he feels is worthy of his interest.  He’s naturally shy of rushing in, but once he’s sure, he won’t’ be easily rebuffed.  Cancerians can play the role of the romantic lover artfully.  His timidity will switch to tenacity overnight, and you’ll find yourself being courted by an earnest, determined man who won’t’ take no as an answer for any proposal he has in mind.

Cancer dads are proud of their sons and fiercely protective of their daughters.  When they’re small, he’ll be just the grandest daddy you could imagine.  However, adolescence may churn up the water somewhat.  He’d like his loved ones to lean on him forever, and when they show signs of independence, he may become a cranky crab again for a period, as he rebels against their desire to experiment with the world outside.

Music, poetry, flowers, beautiful clothes, expensive perfume sparingly used, soft words and sweet caresses are all weapons which should mow down his weak resistance to romance.

well as I know maybe he will be a good daddy =] ahahaha

this is quite sweet. He such a good boy but just a pessimism in his head...

and some of the fact of the female is true... 

"sticky" ahahahhahahaha

lol well =D kudos for the researcher of those zodiac